I was reading Tien’s post earlier today and her thought-process really stood out bringing a wave of emotions. Just thinking about my journey and I how I got here, to this point in my life, and where I came from. I think each one of us have such amazing journeys, whether it was always steady or if we faced trials and difficulties. For me, I think it’s been a little of everything. I’m originally from Albania, a very small Eastern European country that has a diverse geography and history of communism. I moved to the States at the age of 10 and it was then that my life as I knew it changed forever. The dynamics of learning English, elementary school, fitting in, and my first purchase of Keds brought on tears and frustration. It took a really long time for me to feel like I was comfortable in my own skin- probably senior year of high school is when I felt somewhat confident in who I was.
I didn’t have the chance to travel back to my first home until 15 years later, while working in Finland. It was a very surreal experience because all my memories as a child were still so vivid in my mind but being there felt like a different reality. I had changed and even though spoke the language fluently, still viewed as an American, and while I’d always wanted to be seen as such while living here, there, I wanted to be seen as Albanian. It’s a crazy place, people are still making sense of the political and economic freedom that has now existed for almost 20 years, but I really really enjoy being there! I think it’s that part of me that always wonders what my life would have been like if we never left. I think part of the reason why I have an interest for international work in my field is because I’ve never felt like I truly belonged to one place, one country- I don’t know what that feels like. There is that thought-process that we are all citizens of the world and share so much in common, and can truly adapt to new locations if/when given the opportunity.
I think about my partner in crime and the different ways in which we grew up. He was born and raised here with strong family ties whereas I don’t identify with a particular location and my parents are no strangers to working abroad. Even though I’m approaching 30 in a couple of years, I’m hoping to spend time living in a different country and even raise kids in a new environment that isn’t my country of citizenship. Sometimes it’s hard to explain why you’re drawn to certain things, but I know that for me it’s not about curiosity as much as it is about level of comfort and familiarity. I gues I’m thinking about all this because soon we’ll be married and in a year I’ll be done with my degree and will be pursuing an official career.
In clothes-related news, the Openwork Vines skirt is here and it’s beautiful! I can’t wait to try it on and dress it up and down. Here’s hoping to a trip to Anthro this weekend. I’ve decide to return the Star Sprinkled cardi after much debate. I figure that I’m not the biggest fan of short-sleeve cardis and probably wont reach very much for it. Sad, but true.
f21 woven belt
blowfish catrell wedge